School Days

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School. The nourishing routine began. They needed this. And Chas started kindergarten.

With this came new friendships, early mornings slicing carrots, spreading jam, checking homework. Chas is eager to please his teacher; he often reminds me of the one important thing to do when I am bogged down in these daily details.

“Mommy, are you staying with me at school today?”

I think will rock kindergarten

I volunteer now, like many other parents at our school. On Mondays I spend the entire day in the school garden, raking, mulching, planting, weeding, thinning, harvesting, my handiwork echoed sixfold by eager little kindergarten helpers. They take turns. When teacher Kathy isn’t looking, I let the most dexterous child handle the pruning shears to collect rosemary sprigs. He is ready, despite the rules.

Chas plays alongside us in the garden, with no interest in garden maintenance. There are bridges to build and battles to fight under the live oak canopy. He steps back into the sunlight occasionally and his flaxen halo glows in the bright morning light.

It is the little school up in the mountain. We love it here.

Ford is in a classroom with seventeen other children, mostly girls, and, according to his teacher, he is raising his hand at every question, jumping at each opportunity. In the whole-school music class, he volunteers to sing solo. At the same time he is navigating new social ground. He made two close friends on the first day of school, a magnetic, spinning connection over goofy faces, animated gestures and general silliness. And he has discovered the comic book.

In the car on the way to Santa Cruz, on a golden Friday afternoon, Ford sits in the backseat of the car with a stack of paper and a pencil. He draws. By the time the sun has set and I lay the board back atop the car, I look into the backseat to find a stack full of comics that he has drawn. They include page upon page of alien species on lush, fruity topography choosing flowers to eat, introducing themselves to other species. There is no war, no battles, no conflict other than which flowers to eat. There are so many, after all, from which to choose.

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Rodeo

big boots to fill out there (or NOT!)

3' long red vines

I love the pageantry of the rodeo!


The rodeo is ridiculous in many ways but if you put on your rodeo filter and drink a few lukewarm beers in plastic cups, things start to cancel out. The heat bears down and the dust cloaks your sunscreen; the smells hover of burning hot dogs and popcorn and manure and hay. The snorting, the sweat, stomping hooves, the lowing cattle in the holding pens–it’s all the fiber of my memories in Texas, and to immerse the boys at an early age in these textures is to paint a layer of experience that will bring others into sharp focus. I know I can’t expect to find a real John Grady Cole at the Rowell Ranch Rodeo but that’s okay; he’s somewhere where these cowboys end and Damon begins, right about here:

I still don’t understand how Damon can hate horses as much as he does… as much as I love them.

bull ridingmilking the bull relay

I think this boy of mine loves them, too. Would you take a look at his face in these pictures? He studied these guys all afternoon and when the heat was just too much, Chas holed up under the blue shade of an oak tree, right beside the roping calves, and played toy horses. And just like Chas, there was a Mama horse and her baby. Everything else was trivial.

Isn’t it, though? I mean, times two (maybe times more someday)…

I’ve been playing this game, myself, for a long, long time.

Spring Blow

The sun is panning upon the mountaintop like a crazed optimist, beaming on the last spring snowpack and the tiny sprouts of lupine that pepper the weak gray earth at the foot of the ski slope and the final week of the ski season and the velvet blacktop of the parking lot abutting the snow. A mother slides down to the foot of the slope as if on autopilot and unclamps her bindings with an aluminum pole while her four year-old son plows a serpentine stop to meet her and mimics her every move until both of them are hobbling to a parked Mazda SUV that barely looks blue beneath the ubiquitous crust of salt and sand, like the raccoon-eyed facial tans worn by every skier who has seen at least three days of this crackpot sunshine. These two are locals who don’t even need to stop at base for lunch because they will make sandwiches at home. As they pull out she rolls down the driver’s side window and hangs out to greet the next person waiting.

“You got lucky!”

Slowly the second car pulls into the empty spot, one car away from the foot of the slope, and the driver gets out smiling into the crystallized sunshine and back out across the parking lot. He pulls out of the back of his truck a long fluorescent multicolored snowboard and a beanie and a pair of reflective goggles and he locks his door and plods happily towards the resort, followed by two little boys in black snowpants and turtlenecks and three day-old bedhead and chocolate ice cream crust. Their parents watch passively as the boys meander from the parking lot to skirt the precipice of a retaining wall that stands perhaps thirty feet above ground level of the massive resort lodge while they hop from rock to rock along the wall, engrossed like young lambs with the craggy rock beneath them and oblivious to the heights from which they could easily topple, but of course they don’t; this is an upscale resort, as the family is coming to realize, that does not allow bad publicity in the form of tragic child-toppling.

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We’ve been in Lake Tahoe for the week, escaping all the seedlings and kittens and chicks and bunnies for jawdropping panoramic delights and one more ounce of snow. All along, we have missed home and those unspoken little nurturing rituals that make us innate farmers. All week we’ve flung our bodies around the sierras in pinball arcade idiocy, never really hitting the G spot but constantly ramming the bells. Tahoe, you are beautiful and all, but I have to admit: I’m just not that in love with you. You’re smokin hot, though! That’s why we keep coming back, eastbound and down without our senses. xxxo